" The unexpected friendships are the best friendships."
- Missee Trinidad
I always seem to look back on this quote, on how true it is. The unexpected friendships are truly the best friendships out there. The past couple of years I have met people that truly have had my back through everything, and these past couple of months I have gotten close to people I never knew I would be close to. The new close friendships, ended up having my back when I couldn’t pick myself up again, which I never expected them to. I am truly blessed with the new closer friends I have gained. We may only knew and chilled with each other in the past, but I am truly happy on how close we have gotten in the last couple of months. Thank you for everything you have done for me, and all the advice you have given to me even if I can be hard headed at times. You accepted me for who I am, and still were there for me through the bullshit. Those things mean a lot to me, and I can tell when a true one is around. Thank you, thank you once again.
Your heart may feel heavy every time you would see a picture, hear a song, or pass by a spot you and your past love were always at before. Make you think of past memories of the good times, and ask yourself how did someone, someone you once spent every day with talking to or seeing, someone who once made you smile and gave you butterflies in your stomach, someone who showed you what true love was, that someone who was basically like your best friend, would become someone you never knew would become just a friend or stranger to you one day. Thoughts surface in your mind, thinking there will never be another person who would have the same connection you and your previous love had together.
Moving on, it’s easier said than done, but you need to accept what happened, happened for a reason. The world is not going to end, you will not be lonely forever, and there will be someone else who will love you twice as much, maybe three times as much as the last. It will all come to place one day, and that one day will be unexpected, but you need to let go of what once made you happy a long time ago to move onto the next. Remind yourself, you’re a tough cookie, there will be someone who will love you again. You still have friends & family who will be there for you when you need them to help you pick yourself up again if you fall back. No matter how much pain your heart is feeling still, it’s okay, it happens, but for the mean time help yourself to become happy again until that someone finds you to make you even more happier. Don’t let the pain keep you from enjoying your life, shit happens, you still have your whole life ahead of you.
Like they say, if it’s meant to be it’ll all come to place once again, but for now don’t have your hopes up on that saying, focus on doing you and live your life.
And by everything, I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things change, and when it’s no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don’t say anything.
i’ve traveled and experience different cultures for the past couple of months, but i’m ready to go back to reality and do work. i had enough time to clear my mind and get away from it all. i had enough time to realize what i want to do in life. made my decision, i’m coming back home. starting another new chapter in life.